Death of a friend.............

I've been feeling down these few days. My ex-cg friend had chosen to end her life due to mental illness. She has came to our church few months back, but not very regular. Though we are not very close, but we got along well and can chat a lot.

Her name is Michelle Goh, and she told me a lot of her issues in life. Being a friend, she is quite nice, and i rem she gave me a Doraemon water bottle when she found out that i like Doraemon. I rem that she shared some testimonials about her life, and how God helped her through during difficult moments. I know that it had been very hard for her to go through such pain when her illness relapsed. I know she must had struggles a lot and could not take it at that moment of time. As a friend, i failed to concern her more. Always think of "what if" after she is gone....

Today went to her funeral at Mandai Crematorium to send her off. Last night, i dreamt of her, and she bid farewell to me, "I am leaving" was the only words that i heard from her in my dream. I know that i'll not forget her and the moments we had together. Why must she leave? Can't she fight the battle with God's help? I really don't want her to leave like that....

Till now, i still feel very sad in my heart, my heart is crying for a loss of friend. I don't know when can i get over....it's just very painful