I love my Church, and i'm so glad that it is expanding again! Our English Service had moved to Singapore Expo Hall 8 in Dec 05. But, as Pst Kong see a vision to reach out to people in the West. we started our English Service at Jurong West on 2 Dec 07, and we will start another English Service in JW on 2 Feb 07! PTL! I really look forward that our church can come to 30,000 members soon...and find a land in the marketplace!
Yesterday evening, our church has a special speaker, Dr AR Bernard to come to speak to us. He has been invited to our church at least one or twice a yr for the past 10 years. Yesterday, he spoke about Holy Spirit, and the message stirred me up deep inside from my soul. I have been lukewarm and dishearted with my walk with God, and a lof of time, the worldy stress has put me lost in a way...
When he spoke about the Holy Spirit, i can felt so strong that this message is from God through him! He told us how God sent His son, Jesus Christ to us 2000yrs back, and when Jesus left, God placed the Holy Spirit in us. In other words, God is with us! A lot of time, we lost our identity in Christ due to our own life issues, and we forget that God is with us. Thus, we always use our own strength to deal with life issues, and we end up tired and stress...We totally forgot about the HS that is in us. We should be filled with confidence not because we have the power but we ARE power! During the service, i can't help but tears kept welling off from my eyes, touched by God's love though i'm faithless, and sad that i've always neglected the HS placed in me. I'm always struggle to use my own limited strength.
The message seemed to wake me up again, and i know that i've to seek His face, in regardless of how busy i am. Without the HS, though i can still work towards my organisation expectations, but i'll feel tired, and lose the joy in life that God has created for me. (The joy of the Lord is my strength) With my own strength and neglecting God, He will not be pleased, and how can i strengthen without Him, and how can i be joyful?
I am really very happy that i received the message into my heart, and made a decision to change my attitude, and understand my identity in Christ fully. I'll not feel condemn because of my incapilities or when i failed to accomplish some tasks, because God is with me, and i shall work according to His plans, and not my own selfish desires. I thank God for His faithfulness and His love for me. I'm really excited to shine for God once again! My spirit is filled once again! Amen!
The whole of Dec was a very hectic month, with piles of work. Going through some dark valleys and almost couldn't get out of it. Feel myself still spiritually weak despite coming to Christ for 4 yrs. Perhaps i should review my relationship with God once again.
I was dishearted because my good friend's sister passed away last Sun. She was diagnosed with 2nd stage cancer, and was fighting against the illness very hard. Though she accepted Christ a week before she passed away, nothing can change her fate. I was praying hard for her sister, and also asked my cg to pray because the bible said, wen 2 or more pray, there is more power. However, she still went home to the Lord, leaving behind her family members. i was defeated in a way, especially my confidence with God.
Then, it comes that my sis cyst in her womb was growing bigger, and i also asked my cg to pray, but she still needs to go operation. Despite of the prayers, it seems that nothing change. i was discouraged by the fact.
just like in Exodus, when Moses delivered the Hebrews from their slavery, it seemed that the conditions became worse, and Moses cried out to God in Ex 5:23. i was crying to God for things around me...and i feel helpless...But i know that God has His timing, and i know that what i can do now is to seek Him, and look to Him for hope...
