Yesterday late night when i opened my letter box, there were 2 letters for my ex-owners. From the envelopes, they were cheques from the stock company. The first thought was to tear the letters and threw into the dustbin. Then, i heard a voice in my heart, "i thought you said you forgave what the ex-owner had done to you?" I struggled in my heart, and made a decision to send the 2 cheques to the ex-owners. But, it's never easy....
Before things happened, we always think that we are able to handle them well, just like after the incident happened, i cried to God, and God spoke to me about forgiveness. I made a decision to forgive, and told God that i'll obey Him because His grace is more than sufficient for us. However, when come to receiving my ex-owner's letters, the first reaction was still anger! Seconds after, then i remembered through the "reminder" of the Holy Spirit that i already made the decision to forgive, thus, i told myself that i shall send the letters to them despite the troubles that they brought to us.
I thank God for His grace, and when i think of how God sacrificed His only Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross for all our sins, my heart was already very touched, and i know that by forgiving, God is pleased with us. (forgive our debtors as God forgave our debts) To me, i want to obey God's words, and whatever i do, i want to think of how God feels.
Praise God for who He is! My heart rejoice, and i want to sing of His love forever! Amen!
Footnote:
My ex-owner had owed some loansharks money, and was very eager to sell away the flat. Thus, when we viewed the flat, they did not disclosed the real reason (i believe this is the selfish side of human) And, before we bought this flat, we had viewed a no. of them, and i had listed out every details that i wanted for this flat (from what i had remembered):
1. Within walking distance to MRT station (but not too near to avoid the noise)
2. Near the amenities
3. Near to my parents house in Hougang
4. The price must not exceed $165k, lift level
5. AMK area
6. Good neighbours
7. Condition of the house not too dirty
8. Ex-owner must not owe loansharks money
9. Preferably have Christian neighbours
I prayed hard and when we viewed this flat, we believed that God had answered our prayers.
thus, we decided to buy the flat after that. After the loansharks haressed us, my neighbours then disclosed to me this house had been on sale for a year, but no one wanted to buy after knowing from the neighbours that this house owed money.On our part, we are too careless because we did not do a detailed check, and this was a house recommended by my friend. Of course, i can't blame him because he may not know too. But, when we gone through the stage of being haressed and we made police report, it's mental stress for us, but i know that God is looking after us, because the loansharks had been quite "gentle" not to spray paint on our door or to hang a "pig head" outside our gate. What they did were put notes through our doors and letter box, and write "big notices" on the walls and letter box. My neighbours mentioned the loansharks were very fierce as during my ex-owners around, they kept on disturbing my ex-owners till they left to stay with the relatives. And, my neighbours was affected. After we moved in, things started to change, and i believe through this, my neighbours can sense that our God is protecting us, and He is a great God!
Through the incident, i feel that our relationship with God is closer because we see how His hands moving mightily in our life indeed! And, i believe that this is God's house, and one day i wish that my house can be used for cell group.
It's the second week that i've been in my new cell group-CC26. (cgl, Gui Fang is sitting at the centre of the first row) Adapting quite well with our new cg, and i find that this cg is quite united. Initially, i have the fear of able to integrate to the new cg as i'm not very sociable. But, as i open up myself to talk to them, i find that the cg are all quite friendly and nice. And, i happened to know that one of my cgm is my old time neighbour, and i'm very very surprised that she has converted to Christian recently! To me, her family is very traditional and it never occurs to me that we will meet each other in church! Really see how God move almightily in His ways! PTL!
