Today is a very tiring day, seems can't do much work at all. I'm struggled with some affairs in my heart. I still could not get over certain issues, and it's like no one can help. In my heart, i feel that my relationship with Andy is getting very weird. I always feel that we are getting very distant, and i don't really want to talk to him much as i feel that we can't communicate well. Our thoughts are very different, and i find that our characters are also very different. I feel that he has stopped to progress since years back, and i've been learning and progressing over the years, thus, i face difficulties communicating with him.
I always tell him to upgrade himself, and to read and pray, but he seems not very spiritual nowadays. Perhaps i seldom encourage him as i'm also busy with my job and my business. I've seek help from my cell group leader, but he seems to be so busy to sit down together to talk to us. I've given up any hope on that, but i will seek God to help me. Now, i've to think of his good points to keep me going, but inside my heart, i still yearns for God to send someone to interfere.